July 2007


 

July 6th:  Friday night, 11:45 pm:  I was at one of those, 'distracting', parties.  I remember noticing some girls dancing with their hands raised (over their heads), I then realized that I was tapping my finger (on my beer bottle) to the music of a very evil song, and I thought, "Oh Lord, what am I doing?"  I then looked down and saw the beer bottle in one hand and a cigarette in the other and thought, "Oh Lord, this is not right.  I came home to be a light unto these people, not to be in here like this.", and I left shortly afterward.

 

July 7th, 2007:  Saturday morning, 12:15 am:  I had just gotten home from the 'party' and was feeling spent.  My head hurt from all the stuff in my head that I could not piece together (nor tell anyone about), I was tired of living a double life; one before God, another before Man.  (I used to hurry and hide all of my Bible study material when friends or computer clients came by.)  And I just could not take the sin anymore and I knew that if I continued the way that I was going I would end up totally in sin and totally insane and, sooner-or-later, in Hell...

I entered my lab (now, Bible study) and collapsed in the chair in front of my computer system.  I put my left arm on the desk and my head on that arm and I just broke down and cried, and cried, and said, 

"God, I give up.  I can't do it, on my own, anymore.

I have everything but Jesus in my heart; therefore I have nothing...

I commit everything, Lord... my entire life... my soul, my mind and my body

to you and to the guidance of your Holy Spirit.

Save me Jesus."

My computer system was on and I have the hardware and software to have cable TV on the computer and it was running.  After I said the above prayer the words and sounds that were coming from the TV became like acid to my ears and brain.  Without looking my right hand went up and landed on the key to change the TV channel.  The channel changed and it was the same thing, I said, "No, no", I hit the key again and the same thing, "No, no", while shaking my head.

I did this six or seven times and then, from my speakers I heard, "Jesus, Jesus...".  The Gaither's and Friends were singing about Jesus and I said, "Yes, yes, Jesus is the one that I want."  God then filled me with his Holy Spirit and I praised him for an hour or more.

I never spoke in tongues then, though, the Devil was still in my head telling me that the words coming into my head where not of God (now, I know they were) but I was 'infilled' with the Holy Spirit and God blessed me, none the less.  I went to bed feeling very relieved and thanking God for saving me.

I woke up that morning thinking, "Ok, I'm saved now, I'm, really, saved now." and then, "Oh no, summer is here, how am I going to stay away from the beer, my friends, etc.?  You're going to have to help me Lord."

 

I did not feel any different however.  I spent that day, and the following two days, totally engrossed in the Bible and my notes on Bible prophecy.  Form the tenth to the fourteenth of July I spent half days, "doing my own thing", i.e., computer programming, building electronic / electrical interfaces, fixing a computer, or two, watching a bit of TV; the usual things and the rest of the day studying the Bible.

 

 

July 15th & 16thEnter the Devil...  a.k.a. the Tempter, with his temptations of the flesh.  I figured the best thing to do was to completely submerge myself with studying God's word: I did and after two days he (the Devil) left me alone.

 

 

July 17th -to- 20th:  Half days doing "my own thing" half "God's thing" and asking, "God, what am I going to do?  What do you want me to do?  In the short term?  In the long term?  Should I give up fixing computers?  Should I devote 100% of my life to you?  I know I'm not supposed to want a sign, but Lord, I need a sign, for this."

 

I felt Him telling me to shut myself in my apartment and to not answer the door or phone for anyone except for my family.

 

"But, I can't do that, Lord...  I have people phoning and coming by with computers, once or twice a week...  The neighbors will think I turned into a hermit, or gone crazy, or something... etc., etc., etc..."

 

 

July 21st:  Full day seeking God's guidance...  That evening I opened my "old-fashion" King James Bible: the very first words I saw, "... Go, shut thyself within thine house.", Ezekiel 3:24

 

I closed the Bible and put it back down.

 

Up to this point, in my life, the Devil (by disguising himself as my own rational thoughts) had been trying very hard to convince me that everything I was "hearing" and "feeling" was not of God.  

 

But now, "God, you have to be real!  This could not have been a coincidence.  You're real!"

 

I got up, I closed the blinds, I locked the door and went back to studying the Bible...

 

I also surrendered everything that I had, to God; my life, my computers, mmm... that's about all I have ;-)

 

 

July 22nd -to- 24thHe's B-a-c-k!  The Devil, that is...  More of the same, stronger this time, though...  The whole while I was studying the Bible he never stopped...  I kept asking the Lord for help and all I was getting was, "he that overcometh, he that overcometh, he that overcometh", Revelation 2:11, 3:21, 21:7

 

Revelation 3:21 (ASV)

He that overcometh, I will give to him to sit down with me in my throne,

as I also overcame, and sat down with my Father in his throne.

 

I resisted, and resisted, and resisted and overcame...

 

 

July 25thWednesday evening: I decided to pray and fast up until Thursday 5:00 pm

 

That evening I was in the kitchen, when... BAM...  the Holy Spirit "hit" me, from out of nowhere.  I put my face and hands down on the kitchen counter and wept, and wept, and wept.  I then felt a very strong urge to go in to my desk and start writing...  Lead by the Holy Spirit I wrote some personal things concerning myself, my salvation, God, etc.

 

Then God (the Holy Spirit) led me around the Internet and showed me what ONE of the "sub- 666's" are (more on that later). He then revealed to me (illuminated) ONE of the TWO "Babylonian Whores"...  (More on that later, as well)

 

 

July 26th:  I prayed and fasted till suppertime and listened to some Bible chapters (on mp3)

 

That evening, again... BAM...  the Holy Spirit "hit" me again, from out of nowhere.  More weeping, and weeping, and weeping...  Then God revealed me who the other "Babylonian Whore" was/is.

 

 

July 27th:  Friday evening:  I got tricked / lured (by the devil, not 'the boys'), and by my own desires, to have one last beer with 'the boys'.  It turned into two, then three, then four and a pact of cigarettes.

 

Later, that night, (after four or five more beers) at a party, there was a can of butane (for refilling lighters) sitting on a table next to me.  I used to do a 'fire breathing' trick with butane so I took the can in my hand to do this trick.

 

The same "voice" that was telling me everything else, i.e., God's voice, was telling me not to do this trick...

 

I was (self-admittingly) intoxicated and I done it anyway... once... twice... and the third...  By this time God was saying, "PUT THE CAN DOWN, PUT IT DOWN NOW..." so I did...

 

Everyone thought the stunt was cool and "freaky" and then someone, jokingly, said "Buddy from hell, or what?"

 

Those words hit me like a tone of bricks.  One, it was the very opposite character that I wanted to portray (I wanted to be like Jesus) and two, I saw another, big, external connection to my internal "voice from God" for I could, easily, see the reason why God was telling me not to do it.

 

I arrived home at, around 12:30 am, Saturday morning, and, because I had not drank for awhile, I was sick...  And in the washroom, between urges, I thanked God for teaching my a lesson.

 

I went to bed, around 3:00 am, I recommitted my life to Jesus Christ and, eventually, fell asleep while listening to the Bible on mp3.

 

 

July 29th:  Sunday:  The Devil had been around, again, from time-to-time, over the weekend, with his temptations and this day he was pouring it on, more than usual, so I immersed myself in Bible study again.

 

I had prayed and fasted, in the morning, and was asking God to, "Fill in the rest of the pieces, now, Lord.  You showed me so much but now I have more questions than ever."

 

I went on studying my notes, my Online Bible and also doing some other, relevant, research online.  I was also listening to the spiritual music (that God gave me) and from time-to-time I would praise God with my hands raised toward Heaven and with tears flowing downward.

 

Meanwhile, there was a big thunder storm brewing outside.  I had always liked thunder storms; the more lightning and thunder the better I liked it.  The rain was coming strait down so I had a big window opened in my living room / lab / Bible study (to my right) and another window opened out in the kitchen (to my left) so, needles-to-say, the place used to rumble at times.

 

I had no worries about using my (three-screen, two computer) computer system, during the storm, because it was 'behind' three surge protectors and on an isolated, battery backup, power supply.  Plus, I had just previously, on the 21st, donated it all to God and was doing "God related" research, anyway, so I figured everything would be fine...

 

Between studying the Bible, doing online research, praising God and at the window (watching the rain and the storm grow) I was asking God to, "Show me more, Lord.  Show me more."

 

At around 3 or 4 pm God said (via my/our internal voice) "Write down what you already know."  to which I replied, "Ok Lord" as I took a piece of paper and went to 'sum up' what I already knew (what God had already shown me) pertaining to the "end times", i.e., the Beast, Image, false prophet, the Babylonian Whores, etc.

 

I had just written down a statement regarding the Image (of the Beast) and had then gotten up to stretch my legs (and my mind), praise God and look out the window at the rain and storm when BANG...  The loudest (to that point) thunder bolt I had ever heard...  All power went out including the lights (it was dark due to the storm) and the music went...  And my computers with the three screens never even blinked.

 

The power came back on, within a minute, and I hit the power button, on my stereo receiver, it 'picked up' the music (that was still playing on the computer) and way-to-go, everything was back on track.

 

Then it hit me... In the Bible, God has, sometimes, spoken via thunder bolts...

 

"Ok Lord, you just told me to write down what I know and now this thunder storm... is there a connection?  Are you trying to tell me something this way, as well?  If so, Lord, give me the ears to hear it and the wisdom to understand it."

 

I resumed my task at hand while periodically going from computer, to window, to window and praying the above prayer as the thunder storm grew and came closer.

 

I was looking at the last piece of information (on one of my computer screens), that I had just found online.  It included the title of an object and an associated name (the Emerald Tablets of Thoth) and I said out loud, "Well, that's it Lord, when I get this last thing wrote down, that's it, that's all I know."  And I was planning to stop at that.

I had written down, "the Emerald Tablets of Tho..", when... BANG.

 

The house shook, the table shook, I shook (and continued to shake for a minute, or two).  All the power went out again, the older computer system kept on ticking but the best, new computer (the one that had the two screens connected to it), (the one that I was reading from) DIED_______________.

 

A thunder bolt, 10 times louder than ANYTHING I had ever heard...  Directly above my apartment...  For about ten seconds I was actually stunned...

 

After, I regained my senses, I, immediately, knew it was from God...

 

Then I, "spiritually felt", and "saw", the Devil coming, it felt like a heat wave building up inside of me, and then he spoke...  (This time he never even tried to disguise his voice as my 'logical self' or as God's voice.)  He said, "Yeah, some God, isn't He...  Just after you've donated everything to Him... He takes away your one prized possession..."

 

In a moment of shock, and bewilderment, that Deceiver, actually, had me thinking, "Yeah, what he (the Devil) said!" and I, literally, felt the anger building up inside of me.

 

It wasn't just the cost of replacing the computer; I had a 160 GB Hard Drive in it that I figured (at the time) was wiped out.  It was half full of science related data (my "life's work") and the other half pertained directly, or indirectly, to God.

 

I got up and was pacing the floor for about ten minutes.  Going from window to computer, to window, to the other window, to computer and, for the most part, I cannot remember, exactly, what I was thinking about during this time.  

 

However, I do remember this...  After ten minutes, or so, going from the window in my kitchen to the window and the computer in my lab I was passing by the kitchen table, this time to go to another part of the apartment (although I do not know where).  Just before I got to the door I put both of my hands up and said, "Nope, I'm going to trust you, God." and I turned around and went back and sat down in front of my dead computer.

 

I raised my hands, again, and said, "I am going to trust you, Lord.  Besides, you gave me the computer, in the first place, half of the stuff on there was work done for you and yes, I did just donate it all to you... so, I am going to trust you, Jesus." and BAM, the Holy Spirit 'hit' me, again.

 

After, about an half an hour, I felt God telling me to get the Bible (the "old-fashion" KJV, "hardcopy").  The Bible was opened on the desk, to the left of me, and I took it in my hands.  As I did, it closed, and God said, "Go to the book of Isaiah"

 

I went to, go to, find the book when the Bible fell opened to the book of Isaiah. The first thing my eyes saw was two verses that I had underlined years before, Isaiah 41:10, 11

 

 

"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed;

for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee;

yea, I will help thee;

yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

 

Behold, all they that were incensed against thee

shall be ashamed and confounded: they shall be as nothing;

and they that strive with (against) thee shall perish."

 

 

It took me 15 minutes, or so, to get through these verses (due to weeping).  Then God said, "Start a verse 9 and end with verse 13.

 

 

Thou whom I have taken from the ends of the earth,

and called thee from the chief men thereof, and said unto thee,

Thou art my servant; I have chosen thee, and not cast thee away.

 

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed;

for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee;

yea, I will help thee;

yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

 

Behold, all they that were incensed against thee

shall be ashamed and confounded: they shall be as nothing;

and they that strive with (against) thee shall perish.

 

Thou shalt seek them, and shalt not find them,

even them that contended with thee:

they that war against thee shall be as nothing, and as a thing of nought.

 

For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand,

saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

 

 

I recon it took 30 minutes to get through these.  This was God speaking directly to me...

 

The Holy Spirit, then, led me to, John 15:18, 19, 20

 

 

If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.

 

If ye were of the world, the world would love his own:

but because ye are not of the world,

but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. 

 

Remember the word that I said unto you,

The servant is not greater than his lord.

If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you;

if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.

 

 

This was Jesus speaking directly to me...

 

Then the Holy Spirit led me to, John 17:18, 19, 20, 21

 

 

As thou hast sent me into the world,

even so have I also sent them into the world.

 

And for their sakes I sanctify myself,

that they also might be sanctified through the truth.

 

Neither pray I for these alone,

but for them also which shall believe on me through their word; 

 

That they all may be one; as thou, Father, art in me, and I in thee,

that they also may be one in us: that the world may believe that thou hast sent me.

 

 

This was Jesus... praying to the God the Father... for me... and for those who believe on Him, through 'these' words.

 

Sometime later, after communion with Jesus, the Holy Spirit led me to, Ezekiel 44:23, 24

 

 

And they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and profane,

and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean.

 

And in controversy they shall stand in judgment;

and they shall judge it according to my judgments:

and they shall keep my laws and my statutes in all mine assemblies;

and they shall hallow my sabbaths.

 

 

And then to, 2nd Chronicles 36:14, 15, 16

 

 

Moreover all the chief of the priests, and the people,

transgressed very much after all the abominations of the heathen;

and polluted the house of the LORD which he had hallowed in Jerusalem.

 

And the LORD God of their fathers sent to them by his messengers,

rising up betimes (early), and sending;

because he had compassion on his people,

and on his dwelling place:

 

But they mocked the messengers of God,

and despised his words, and misused his prophets,

until the wrath of the LORD arose against his people,

till there was no remedy.

 

 

I continued praising God, in the spirit, and sometime later, as I was pulling my chair into my desk, I felt a "whoosh" and I saw, come form within me (my chest area) and up and out of my "face area" and projected out in front of me (about a foot away, form my eyes) a three-dimensional, spherical, matrix of dots, all about a centimeter apart.

 

This was a vision of my life...  And, it was as if someone had taken a red pen and a black pen and connected all of these dots.  The black lines was God, in my life, and the red lines were the Devil, in my life.  I "saw" every way that God came into my life and I "saw" every way the Devil came into my life.

 

On top of this, I "saw"... "the evil that I had become" (and the evil that God had delivered me from) and after the vision faded away I spent at least a hour, or two, knelt down on the floor, with my hands over my face and my face to the floor, weeping...

 

Then, sometime later, I began to have a feeling as if there were a "watering hose" going strait down the core of my body.  It felt like God was pouring hot liquid down this hose and it was seeping out in all directions from the full length of this "hose" at the same time.

 

As this "hot liquid" slowly spread outward, into my body, the more I was "seeing" and understanding about God, the universe, the way God works in the universe, Satan, and the way he works, and all kinds of other stuff.  I can't even remember most of it and there were/are so many different dynamics and "variables" that I would never be able to explain it.  This was the Holy Spirit 'illuminating' the Word of God to me...  Again, and unfortunately, I did not retain all of it (at least, not on the conscious level); for shortly thereafter most of it faded away.

 

I started thanking and praising God again, the Holy Spirit was still upon me and after a while He said to me,

 

"You wanted a sign,

you got many signs,

now, look at what you have written down."

 

 

Referring to what I had just finished, when my computer died (what I had, totally, forgotten about), which was now under the Bible.

 

I lifted the Bible off the paper and looked at it... BAM... Revelation revealed...  (Chapter 13, anyway)  Who, What, When, Where, Why...  I saw the BIG picture.  Not anything extra "revealed" or added but, what was there, was now, made clear... I still do not know everything, however.

 

Praise God... what a day! (I believes in God now...)

 

Finally, finally, finally, there is, absolutely, no doubt, whatsoever... and I am, after 37 years, finally, at peace.

 

From that day (July 29th) to August 12th, I took that original drawing, and text, and redrew it, and redrew it, and redrew it, and redrew it, and redrew it, and redrew it (the sixth time on a drafting table).  Each time I redrew it more, and more, of the smaller pieces started to fall into place.

 

 

July 30thBack when the date, 06/06/06 (June 6th, 2006), came around, a movie entitled, "666" was released.

 

I know (and knew then) what the real (main) 666 stands for but in December, of that year, I rented the movie; to see what Hollywood was calling "666"...  It was bogus, of course, and not even close.

 

I said to myself, however, "I wonder if anything good will happen on 07/07/07 ?" and then I, completely, forgot about it.

 

On this day, July 30th, God told me to keep track of my experiences with Him, on a little calendar (the one on the Calendar link).

 

When I took note of my experiences for that month... I became aware of the fact that I gave my life to God, the Lord Jesus Christ on...  777

 

So, now, to answer my own question...  Yes !   The best, possible, thing, that could have happened (to me), happened on 07/07/07...